Are You Living in the State of Denial? I have been.

You know, living in the state of Denial (our 51st state?) is not a bad place to be. It is peaceful there. Reality doesn't bother you......, well, except for those nagging thoughts in the back of your mind that just won't go away, but they are easy to ignore, at least for a while. You can do what you want, just keep denying, denying, denying.

Yep. That was me. For a long time, actually. What was I denying? Well, if you remember, I am diabetic. I was diagnosed over two years ago. I have never taken diabetic medicine, just 'controlled' it with my diet. Yea, right.

It was easy for me to convince myself that I really wasn't diabetic, because many times I tested my blood sugar and had normal readings. Soooo I began to eat whatever I wanted, and I quit testing. The State of Denial.

I'm not sure what made me decide to emerge from my extended vacation in that state. Perhaps it was because I had decided to get tests done, mammogram, colonoscopy, endoscopy, pap, etc. I don't know.

Anyway, I bought some test strips. The ones I had had expired...... I tested my blood sugar. It was 167. Not horrible, but not good. I tested my husband's blood sugar. He had eaten exactly the same thing I had eaten four hours earlier. His was 116. Sigh. I could deny it no longer.

If I wanted to be healthy, I had to realistically face, accept, and deal with this disease. Yep. I had to change my address from the State of Denial to the State of Reality.