Monday, May 27, 2013

How Hard of a Whack With a 2 X 4 Does It Take To Get My Attention?

     Well, once again I chose, deliberately I might add, to take up residence in the State of Denial. Temporary residence in that state is quite nice. You can do what you want, and (for me) eat what I want. Yes, ignorance is bliss, albeit temporary bliss, but still, sigh, bliss.
     There is a day of reckoning that always comes, however. A day when your residence in Denial must come to an end, and you are pulled kicking, screaming, and clawing the ground back into reality where you must face and accept things as they are. Yes, that has once again happened to me. When I checked my blood sugar for the first time in months, and it was the highest I had ever seen, I knew that life for me had to change.
      Now comes close monitoring and strict control on my diet to see if I can still keep my blood sugar in normal ranges without medication. We'll see.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Weight Loss Milestone For Me!

Yep! Yep! Yep! This week I reached 20 pounds of weight loss with Weight Watchers. Feeling lighter feels great. I have won the notice and compliments of friends, the fun of 'digging' through my closet for clothes that now fit, and the sheer thrill of tossing clothes that are now too big into a bag to give away.

I have a closet full of clothes that have been too small for years. I called them my 'hope so' clothes. Year after year those clothes just hung in the closet and I began to think of them as my 'probably not' clothes. However, now they have become my 'probably so' clothes.

Thank you Weight Watchers.

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Monday, April 9, 2012

Weight Watchers and Me

Hope has once again arrived. I am within 1/2 pound of 20 pounds lost since I have been on Weight Watchers and it feels great. Today I bought a new pair of jeans and went to the misses sizes because the women's sizes were all too big! Yea!

Each day is a new day. No matter how things went with food yesterday, today is a new day and another chance to do the right thing for myself and my health.

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Sunday, April 8, 2012

Headed the Right Direction

I am setting no records for rapid weight loss. Yes, I eat a chocolate chip chewie when I bake them. However, my scales are still slowly but surely showing weight loss. As long as I have 1/2 pound to 1 pound weight loss each week, and as long as my blood sugar stays under control, I am happy.

In a couple of weeks I go back to my cardiologist, and I hope he will be pleased.

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Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Hard? Let's Talk About What's Hard

You know, I have always talked about how hard it is to maintain control of my weight and what I eat. Yes, it is hard. Most people never maintain their weight loss because the "call" of sugar, salt, and carbs is so great, and weight lost eventually becomes weight gained.

But it is not nearly so hard as what I saw this weekend. This is hard. I saw a dear family member lying in a hospital bed, bloated to the point of almost being unable to move because dialysis has been unable to keep up with the fluid his body is collecting. He has a blood clot in his leg because he lives his life in a wheel chair. All this is due to diabetes. Living with this is hard.

Another family member is nearly blind and is also on dialysis due to diabetes. Living with this is hard.

In comparison, eating so as to avoid having to live like this one day is not hard. I know that I will have future moments of weakness. I know that I will not always have the picture of the way some of my family lives clearly in my mind.

However, I do hope that from this point on, I will be able to keep my perspectives straight. Avoiding brownies and other such foods so that I can avoid dialysis or blindness, is not hard. Living this those serious things is very hard.

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Take that, #%^%# Brownies!

What those brownies meant for bad,......ok, well, that's going too far. However, while eating the brownies last week was not good, it did not destroy my diet. In fact I have lost almost 3 pounds since that day! So take that brownies. I am still the victor!

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Saturday, February 4, 2012

Those #%}£¥ Brownies!

I was not prepared for brownies. They were just sitting there on the table with all the other desserts. They were made just the way I like them. Oh, dear. What to do? What to do? Just a small taste. Yep. That would be ok, I told myself. Just a small taste. I have just a small taste and that will be all.

Well, I had a small taste. Then another one and another one. That first small taste became several small, well, not so small, tastes. I'm sure my blood sugar soared. Sigh.

This was just another confirmation that I have no stopping power when it comes to sugar and chocolate. Just how many confirmations do I need? One small taste is at the same time too much and not enough.

The good news? I did not totally crater. I am still counting points and exercising, and my weight is still heading the right direction. Yea!

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